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From the beginning of the story, she describes the pathetic condition of her physical body with a sense of detachment, in a tone of irony, wit and humor. The sentences are intelligently crafted. Elucidating her accidental fall, she writes, “So many movements unbalanced me, and as I pulled the door open, I fell over backward, landing fully clothed on the toilet seat with my legs splayed in front of me:…..the building deserted, I was free to laugh aloud as I wriggled back to my feet, my voice bouncing of the yellowish tiles from all directions” (Para 1).
Even in such a grim situation, she exhibits her capacity to remain in good humor and thus generates confidence. That is no ordinary sense of humor; it is the challenge to her destiny that brings her physical body to such a sorry state, but it fails to beat her mental toughness. She neither pities her condition nor condemns herself. She accepts her state of being “crippled” as part of her inner experience. She shows how reading about disability is much different from experiencing the disability.
One’s strength is tested when one undergoes the ordeal. Her inner strength is admirable and the tone is straightforward. She admits, everyone is entitled to one’s opinion about her plight, and she is entitled to hers. I am devastated by her honesty. She is no more an active partner in the domestic environment and is unable to share the responsibilities, and watches with resigned pleasure how her children and other family members have readjusted to her changed physical condition. But she admits candidly, “But I couldn’t bear the corroboration that around me were doing in fact what I’d always suspected them of doing, professing fondness while silently putting up with me because the way I am.
A cripple” (Para 17). But this is a situation in her life over which she has no control. She is aware, people who interact with her and family members with direct responsibility towards her, show special concern, consideration and kindness to her. But the structured of her deformed and fragile body has nothing to with her steely mental frame and her tough resolutions in life. She makes a matter of fact observation, “People - crippled or not - wince at the word "cripple," as they do not at "handicapped" or "disabled.
" Perhaps I want them to wince. I want them to see me as a tough customer, one to whom the fates /gods /viruses have not been kind, but who can face the brutal truth of her existence squarely. As a cripple, I swagger.”(Para 2) She believes that the medical practitioners are in the learning stage about her complicated condition and does not blame them for their initial confusion about the diagnosis. They are doing their best to monitor the developments happening to her body. She has her challenge, and they have their challenges.
She describes her relationship with the doctors taking care of her: “I may be frustrated, maddened, depressed by the incurability of my disease, but I am not diminished by it, and they are" (Para 30). She has converted her physical disadvantage to strengthen her spirit and sharpen the writing skills. Her words have more punch and imagination is more fertile, as would be seen from the words go in the essay. About the vital role her sense of humor plays in her life, she expresses her predicament and fear that the gravity of her disease may do irreversible damage to her existence and writes, “
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