But still, she is my mother and despite all her fault and my hatred for her, I also admire her hardworking nature. Indeed, mothers not only nurture but they can also be violent and selfish.
I am 19 years female and only child of my mother, but I am still terrified of going home! I vividly remember that as a child, I was pampered by my father and was spoiled with gifts that were not appreciated by mother, even at that time. After my father left us, those very gifts had become the bane of my life. My mother uses those gifts as tools to beat me. I often wonder why she is not like other mothers who are so lovable. My friend, Linda says that her mother is like her friend and she shares all her secrets and hopes with her. I envy her. Stacy is like a possessed demon when I try to share my fears and hope with her. I think, after working hard, she looks for peace and my fears spook her.
Stacy is not only bad tempered but she is also irresponsible and a gambler. Roulette and cards are her favorite games where go for high stakes. Sometimes, she wins but mostly she loses and those times, she is most vicious, both physically and verbally. She is foul mouth and beatings start after a heavy binge of drinking. All through my childhood, I have been beaten and browbeaten to the extent that I have become a timid person with extremely low self-esteem. For a mother, who works hard to improve the lives of physically and mentally children, her behavior towards me is very perplexing.