Evelyn monologue - Coursework Example

Evelyne’s Story Why is this happening to me now. After all, I have done to protect my daughter Faith, she just ups and leaves, just like that. Am really mad at her, she broke my heart. Faith is the only thing I had in the world. Only if she had not discovered that I am a Jew. How did she find out anyway, I had torn all those photographs and my past letters so as to keep it from her. Then after hiding it, she just for all this time someone just blabs it to her. But it must be my fault, am the one who wronged her here, keeping a secret that big would hurt anyone when they discover.

Am paying for all my deeds. I should be ashamed of my deeds. I let her down, I disregarded the fact that she is now a grown up and not a child any more. But come to think of it, how did she discover? It must have been my mother. Yeah its my mother who told her about my past. How could she. Thanks to her I have lost the only thing I had in the world, no husband, my daughter is gone now, I have no one.I wish I had been more open to her as she grew up. This could not have happened at all. If only I had let in on the truth, things could have been easier for her to handle.

I can only imagine the shock she had when she finally heard the truth. If I had worked hard to build a relationship with Faith, if only I was a good mother. I regret the times I did not come home until late at night. I should have made more time for her, to talk to her to share her fears and let her see the world through my eyes. I should have known one day this would happen and I would not have a second chance at doing these things. I should have given my mother so much freedom to talk to my daughter, Faith; look where it has put all of us.

I remember my childhood with tears I never had enough time with my parents. They were ever out working; making sure we had a roof over our head and food on our table. My perception of the world was through my friends. Who used to mock me for being Jewish. I heard that part of my life for my daughter, with the aim of protecting her. I did not want her to be mocked by other children, the way it happened to me. No one would want their children to experience prejudicism that is why I did my best at keep that side of me away from my daughter, I thought the less that she knew the better it would have been for her.

After having spent so little time with my mother during my childhood, I decided to let her move in with me so we could at least try to catch up. However, this was never to be, we are like strangers. All she does is to meddle in my own affairs; she will talk about me with the neighbors and everyone in their church. Now she has crossed the boundaries and she tells my daughter everything and anything about me and my past. If only I could get her to shut up and mind her own business, life could be a lot easier for all of us.

Samuels D, Kindertransport, Nick Hern Books, London, 2009BibliographySamuels, D, ‘Kindertransport’ Nick Hern Books, London, 2009.